I started to answer some questions tonight and totally avoid this post. The reading today said to find joy in exercise because if you can move you still the ability to enjoy it, mostly. This is true. So here's my top 10 list of whiny excuses about exercise.
At a large size, exercise is not easy. It's not pretty, cute, coy, sexy, random, flighty, fun or fast! It sucks. LOL. It does. I know that with each step it gets easier every time...but that's only partially true. It does get easier than when you have none, but again it doesn't work the same way as it does for thinner people.
I can walk for a while, but I have to stop. When I stop, I want to sit. I can't sit because there's no benches. Leaning doesn't feel the same as sitting because I'm still on my feet which are hurting so bad because I want to sit. And this is in sneakers, God forbid trying this in heels. And some surfaces are much more easier to walk for, but no matter what, I'm going to get tired and want to sit down. This is one of those reasons I don't go with friends, it's too embarrassing to say "I can't walk 4 blocks without stopping." We do have a treadmill and I've been walking on it. I can go for 10 minutes at a time and a total of 25 minutes - very slowly.
I can swim...but yeah right I'm not going out in a suit in front of people. I could use a friends pool, but seriously feel so self-concious even in front of her, it's not worth it to me. I do love to swim though and wish I could find a class that only had overweight people in it with privacy curtains.
Hiking is kind of fun, but it's tough and I'm always scared I'm going to hurt myself and how will I get out of there. Fear paralyzes me here.
We have a Wii balance board but there's a weight limit there. I still play the bowling, tennis and golf. The boxing is too much of a work out and makes my arms jello'y. But you know...that's an idea there. I gave up on it before, but something is better than nothing.
I wish I had one of those 3-wheeled bikes. I know how to ride a two wheeler, but really... my butt would be so sore for days! If I had one, I probably wouldn't ride though because Carl don't have a bike. And I'm back to that paralyzing fear concept in the hiking part.
Either it's too hot or too cold... I complain about the weather daily. I do realize I need to buy some long johns (I've never had a pair) so I can get out when it's colder. And that would mean I need to put my shorts on when it's hotter and trust that the blinding glow off my legs won't burn peoples eyes out when they see them.
Those people on the Richard Simmons "Sweatin' to the Oldies" videos ARE NOT beginners! I SWEAT, they smile. So very rude. And on the Leslie Sanson "Walk Something" there's a woman in the back who gets this "I'll kill you people" look because Leslie never speaks to her throughout the video except for one small little comment at the very end. I just want to shake her and say "chill, it's okay."
Yoga. Okay I got a chubby girl does yoga tape. And I love the feel of the stretch. I was doing just fine and dandy with it until someone Christianly flipped out on me and said "doing yoga is worshipping another god." Talk about GUILT. If that was worshipping another god, then I looked bad doing it. I just liked the way it stretched my body, but I haven't returned to it yet. I'm undecided on it.
Sweat. I don't like it. Who does, right? I know.
EXCUSES. I typed out most every excuse for not exercising. It's too hard, I'm too slow, people stare, I'm too heavy, I don't have this, I want that, I don't like to sweat, blah blah blah. Now... they're out of my head and the wheels are set in motion. I can't hide the reasons I don't like to exercise. And they all sound totally stupid anyhow.
I think it's time to put the excuses to bed and move on with the plan. I don't know what's going to happen in a year from now. Not even a month, a week or in a few days...but God willing, I can make a plan for tomorrow. My plan is to finish blogging and go to bed. When I get up, I'll get on the treadmill and do 20 minutes. Once I'm done, I'll come and post it on the sidebar.
AND... while I'm exercising, I'm going to Thank God for the blessings in my life. I will find joy in exercise.
"I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me." ~Galatians 2:20
Work through me, Lord, in every part of life. To you be all the glory. Amen!
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Today's Scripture:And so, dear brothers, I plead with you to give your bodies to God. Let them be a living sacrifice, holy--the kind he can accept. When you think of what he has done for you, is this too much to ask? - Romans 12:1
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