W1-D5 : I've been prideful.

"and you will know that God's power is very great for us who believe.  That power is the same as the great strength God used to raise Christ from the dead and put him at his right side in the heavenly world..." ~ Ephesians 1:19-20

I'm stuck.  I don't know what to say.  This verse cut to the core of me and I feel starstruck, for lack of a better word. 

When you talk about giving it all over to God, do you (being I) realize just what you're saying.  I mean, He has the awesome complete power to not only resurrect His son... He created life as we know it... He created me...He's the reason I'm still here now.  I knew all this, I did.  But this scripture, it's mind-altering. 

I'm dumbfounded and humbled and I feel ridiculous. 

An excerpt from the book just adds to this " The same power that raised Christ from the dead...  Surely, then, it must be sufficient power to overcome the relatively minor obstacles in our lives.  Surely it is much more than enough power to confront and overcome our daily struggles with overeating."

Then the lightbulb question is asked "So why isn't it working?"

It's not working because I never asked for his help.  I just look at the food and think "oh, it's nothing.  I can ignore it. That's what I'm supposed to do."  Ten minutes later, I've ate it and feel regretful.  And then generally I eat something else since I've already messed up the day.  It's been a tug-of-war in my mind and it never had to be.

I don't know what I even want to say...this has been the longest post to ever write.  I just keep thinking of the ultimate power that's at my disposal if I just ask for it.  I gotta get over my prideful self, like right now.

"I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me." ~Galatians 2:20

 

Work through me, Lord, in every part of life. To you be all the glory. Amen!

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Today's Scripture:  And you will know that God's power is very great for us who believe.  That power is the same as the great strength God used to raise Christ from the dead and put him at his right side in the heavenly world.  ~Ephesians 1:19-20

Insight:  The scripture and prayer that I've been ending every post with actually jumped out loud at me tonight.  I have been crucified with Christ. - The old me is dead and gone.  Why have I continued to live that life? -  His strength is mine.  His death was for me... Hello?  Where have I been... was I numb to the word all these years?  I know it.  I hear it.  I read it... but tonight, I felt it.  I'm feeling very weirded out right now... LOL :)   But in a good way.  So as I close this entry, I'm going to say it again and this time with meaning because I know He can.

Lord, work through me in every part of life.  To you be all the glory.  Amen!